Where are we heading to?

On my behalf this quarantine could come to a sudden end tomorrow. 

I’ve already found out too many things about people, I didn’t even plan to reach this level of awareness… 

Although, at the very beginning I was very fond of how clearly I saw a lot of complicated aspects.

Mostly I’ve learned stuff about the hatred people are capable of, this amount just made me contemplate my own inertia. 

I truly believe that we have reached a point where we shouldn’t be that much preoccupied with the virus but more afraid of what we could become if this situation lasts a long time from now on… In that aspect, I saw a lot of “naked” people lately and that undressed humanity made me think I should build up some new relationships after this lockdown “adventure” is over. 

Not because “people are bad” in general, but I’ve lost track of what we’ve had until this unprecedented situation. 

In a lot of cases nothing more left to say because the conflicts arose were not really about the issue itself but about much deeper things, with no “sorry, I’ve overreacted” or something like that at the end… People were not sorry because they truly meant it. They truly wanted to hurt me or somebody else they were fighting with, they didn’t want to solve the conflict, they wanted the simplest of all connections… My quarantine was mostly about this kind of conflict of which I had only a few before this period, and despite promising myself not to get into the ring I’ve found myself there. I had to protect myself from the farther damage of not protecting myself... 

If that’s the “social distancing” the World Health Organization aimed for, well, I have to say we already accomplished the highest of quotas, so we should put an end to the project…   

We have succeeded to fully distance ourselves from other people’s interests, hardships, and pains and not to function as a society anymore… 

But this is only one side of this story. The other one consists of plenty of other relationships chopped with an ax. How so? Exactly like that: you have a connection with somebody (a great deal of somebody) and in the following moment, you have nothing but a huge vacuum. One cannot know, after all, which was more unreal: the relationship itself or its very end. So I have to ask myself: where are we heading to? Is it enough to get through all this physically? What are we going to become? Lonely but (hopefully) healthy carrots with lots of damages around, mostly some other vegetables who likewise cannot interact because the soil is so sterile nothing grows in it…?

Okay, grownups have made their choices… But it’s not them I’m really sorry about, but children of all ages. My little one was crying one of these days because she thinks she is not “old enough” to go to school… She partially understood that preschools are closed, that’s why she thought she would rather try a still open school… “Nobody wants to come to my place and play with me for real not on the phone… I don’t like it that way, not anymore” she was complaining and I truly felt the sorrow and grief she was feeling. 

She is only 4 and I ran out of good explanations of why is this lasting so long.  

So, I think something should be done about that… I don’t want to raise a lonely but (hopefully) healthy carrot with lots of damages around, mostly some other vegetables who likewise cannot interact because the soil is so sterile nothing grows in it… 

And if that's the direction we are heading to maybe we should find another planet...