Returning to normal?

Can either of us remember when was the last time we said something like "it's a free country/world, so you can do whatever you wish" (even mocking someone who hadn't had the guts of doing a thing she or he wanted)? Well, I guess it was some months ago. We cannot even remember the moment...

Neither can I, I have to admit. That's just an exercise I've proposed to you in order to check if either of us can say such a thing these days. Or when could possibly be that "next time" we will...

It's not a free country, it's not a free world… Let's be true to ourselves at least in that specific aspect. It would be a free world if we could approximate the time of our free social acts. 

But even so, we can do something out of line: for instance to think with our own brains and not waiting for someone (anyone) to put our worlds together. One to build each day one's inner freedom – that is almost an anarchist deed nowadays…

Some might think I'm out of my mind, but I think: one cannot build such a thing living inside the city where the concentration of fear and panic is much too high as one can feel these on a daily basis, almost touching them (it's a the huge challenge I've experienced for more than a month and a half). That’s why I would advise everyone: go on the fields or into the woods because the close connection with nature is essential during these challenging times and even afterward!

After two months of lockdown we are eager to return to what we call "normal". But what does that really mean? We, once again, are waiting for somebody to tell us the exact definition. And that is dangerous because it's the perfect way to become less free. Well, no one can make a law for returning to "normal" while “normal” means plenty of different things to each of us: eating a Hawaii pizza in the main square, going on a long bicycle ride, visiting our best friend with whom we can drink a glass of good wine... These mean very different ways of "normal". Who could possibly make a generally valid rule? 

The exact and, most of all, individualist definition of "normal" is quite important these days. It is part of our wisdom of being free. I don't have to watch or read the news to find out things about that! It is a matter of references: "in my concern, being free means that I don't have to fear to talk and to write about freedom". Well, I don't know exactly if I have that because in the next moment I receive 4 pieces of Ro-Alert message stressing the great danger I face or I should be facing these days... 

But I'm on a huge meadow now and after reading those messages of fear I can look around and see that everything is green, the mountains are in exactly that same place I've left them yesterday, so I can also notice that above those people sending me those messages of fear it’s a Higher Power they cannot possibly control. 

Isn't it nice that they cannot have it all? 

No one can make a law for stopping me in looking around and seeing what I see or forcing me not to jump to different conclusions. And that’s great!  (I’m not some kind of a fan of conspiracy theories, I’m just saying that I had it and that no one can force me to like the absolute control some people pretend to have over my life.) 

You cannot have it all, guys! Because I switch off or ignore the TV, the radio, even the news feed on my page and… that’s it! I simply enjoy the freedom of not wanting to control everything. 

It is strange: even my job is designed for not controlling all issues in life but rather to understand why people’s thinking is different from mine even if they are facing almost the same circumstances (at this point I’m really grateful to a very special lady who had the patience for me to realize this).  

Do you think it’s easy? Hell no! I’ve spent my whole life thinking and wanting to have a healthy control, but all the best things in my life have turned out to be uncontrollable. 

So, after going through hell I can affirm that now I’m having the greatest lockdown of all where even my anger benefits of fresh air and Vitamin D.